Hello RainStarDragon and thanks for your reply! Well my situation is a little different than most and will probably sound pretty far fetched; even I have trouble believing it myself. But I swear every bit of it is the truth! So let me just give a little synopsis of my situation.
It has always been this way for me, at least for as long as I can remember. I have always been able to see certain things that others can't. As to what they are I can't really say myself...ghosts, demons, yokai, or whatever. Some of them are definitely scary, gruesome, and just plain old sickening. I get the sense that some are really evil or bad and others are really good natured or want to help me in some way. But even the "evil" ones aren't out to hurt me (maybe others but they say they want me.) Anyways, I went through years of conseling as a child until I decided to ignore them and pretend I didn't see them anymore. When I became a teenager they started appearing more and more frequently. To the point that it was very hard to ignore them. So I started to do lots of drugs just to keep my sanity it seemed like. And it seemed to help because the "visits" came few and far between. But now I have just started to really sober up and now there starting back again. So I guess my first question is WTF?! Am I just crazy or just have an extremely over active imagination like all those therapist said? I've tried to communicate with them, but it seems like the only thing I can understand their saying is just my name. When I was a child I could carry on a converstation with some of them, but not anymore. What's your take on this? I just don't know anymore. I find it kinda hard to believe in ghost and spirits and junk (no offense) but with what I see it's kinda hard to just ignore whatever it is. No any "real" onmyoujis that can see the same and can offer some help? Thanks for your help!!! Well, I'm off to work for now but I'll check back in later! If anybody else can offer anything I'd greatly appreciate it!!!
Sorry about the delay, I don't check here every day. I've got university classes eating all my time, spiritual practice, ministerial duties, two young children (one that is very headstrong and argues everything, and the other is autistic) and a game site that I help maintain (the owner is hoping that soon it earns enough he can start paying me finally). So if you need me to come and answer within a day find Priestess Amehana on Dragon Hearts.
First off, onmyoudo is only a particular branch/style of magic and spirituality. Anyone within the magic community that believes in and deals with spirits of any stripe would be able to give you general advice. My personal path has no name, yet I am a Priestess, following my kami, and my practices are influenced by Shinto, Onmyoudo, Buddhism, Native American beliefs, Wicca, and much more. Like you, I have seen spirits since I was very young. I just never tried to shut if off. I rather liked having a guardian to talk to and knowing what was making me feel weird when I went to certain places or saw certain people.
As to having an overactive imagination... do these beings sometimes tell you things that you don't already know? Then it's not an overactive imagination. Same goes for if they can sometimes move stuff.
As to being able to understand them as a child, and now you can only understand your name, it takes time to relearn. Some spirits might speak in their native languages, and some times it takes use to strengthen inner ears. That takes practice and exposure. I would suggest meditation as your first step.
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Ok here's a quick question that might be somewhat easy to answer....I hope. Yesterday I was in the shower and had a day dream that I was being followed by a dog. It was just sitting there staring at me not doing anything but. Ok now here's the freaky part...shortly after getting out of the shower I went up to the gas station to buy some smokes, right. Well as soon as I got out of my car and looked up there was a poster of a lost dog, that looked exactly like the one that was staring at me in the shower. So the question is: does that mean that the dog was dead?, or was it just coincidence?, or am I just mentally f*#@'d up, completely? Anyone have something like this happen to them? Or am I schizophrenic, psychotic, looney, or just a really overly active imagination and everything is always just coincidences (or rather that's just how I see them)? Any thoughts on this? Jaa, ne!
Ni ichi... stop thinking you are psychotic. That's annoying, doesn't do you any good, and doesn't apply a nice label to every other person that has strong extrasensory abilities.
The dog might be dead, yes. It also could have been sleeping, and it's spirit wandered trying to find someone to help it get home. Keep your eyes open for the dog of course, and if you see it call the number on the poster. Try to call the dog's spirit back to you if it has left, see if you can get it to lead you to its body. Or, if it indicates it no longer has a living body, try to guide it "home," helping it to find a white light generally works well for assisting a complete crossover.
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